Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

Broken -LifeHouse

Manzil!

...

Ye kia Safar hai ke jis main
Raste bhi Humsafar bhi ...

kadam kadam par Badal rahe hain
koi bhi Manzar nahi ke jismai Thehar sakon main
Palak palak mai badalne wali
Ajeeb dunya ki Rahguzar hai

kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil
kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil

......

humain Guman tha ke is Safar mai

Ziyan ka koi Kadam nahi hai

hamare bas mai hai sari Dunya

kahein koi Pech-o-Kham nahi hai

magar jo ab Murr ke dekhte hain

to Gard ankho mai bhar gaye hai

Wajood sara hai Weham jaisa

Ghubar rasta,Gumaan hai manzil

samajh rahe thay Yahan hai Manzil

....

kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil

kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil....

Kaavish

Choice

..
........Going back home...30 minutes into the drive, I felt something warm flowing through my eyes...was that so painful?!?!...leaving someone...missing someone...complaining to God "why the good times don't last long", But isn't it just being ungrateful to God ?!?!?
I am Sad...

.........Next 3 hours passed while driving, having some snacks..sodas, stoping by a couple of gas stations..and thinking and thinking....Isn't it so strange how someone can give us so much happiness and for that very reason one should always be thankful to that person and of course God...You never know it could have been worse.
...

.........In the last 30 minutes of the journey..again i felt something warm flowing through my eyes...I asked myself....Is it the same feeling??? "No"...Is it the same person?? "Yes".

I am Happy...

Thought of the Day

Its Hard to Wait around for Somthing ,that you know might Never happen ,

But its even Harder to give up especially...when its Everything you have ever Wanted.

Raat

........Raat....kitni tareek hoti hie na.....ek sannata...ek wehshat...ek anjana sa khauff hota hei raat mei....per jane kyun...in sab key baad bhi ek ajeeb sa sakoon milta hei is raat sey.....Akser hum din me beesion logon k hote hue bhi tanha hote hein....per raat me akele hote hue bhi tanha nahi hote...

Kabhi tum ne ghor kia us Chand per jise raat mei meelon ki musafat tae kerni hoti hei..per wo hamare lye apni raftaar itni madham ker deta hei kai kahin hamari nazron se ojhal na ho jaye....Jante ho kyun ..kyun k wo hume tanha nahi chorna chahta....

Aur ye jheengar jis ka khuaf use hamare samne nahi aane deta...per wo apni chaaen chaaen se musalsal apni mojoodgi ka ehsaas dilata rehta hei...

Deewar per lagi ghari.....poora din jis ki tik tik per hum ghor hi nahi kertey....wo raat bhar humse baatein kerti rehti hei....kabhi ghor kia raat kai kisi peher ...tik tik tik tik...

Wo sard hawa k jhonke jo tum se sargoshian kerte phirte hein aur wo patton ki sarsarahat...

Aur phir ye sitaare...

" Kis kadar ehsaas hei qudrat ko mere dard ka
Jagte rehte hein taare raat bhar mere lye "

Ye taare hamara sath nibhane ki dor me apni poori koowat se tim timaate rehte hein aur is hi koshish me dam tor jaate hein...aur dekhney wale khoosh ho kay kehte hein “wo dekho toota taara...”

Dekha tum ne!!!

Me tanha to nahi raat kei is safar mei, ye sab mere sath hote hein....mere gham gusaar,mere dost...mere ratt jagon k saathi...

Asaasa

...
Ek key chain,
Ek ‘Jazz’ phone card….jis se ab koi call nahi aati,
‘McDonlads’ kay wrapper per likha wo note,
Ek friendship band, jo ab mere hath ki unglion me ata hi nahi,
Ek hair catcher,
Kuch khali cards….jin mey parhne key liye bohat kuch tha…per ab shayd wo waqai hi blank hein,
Ek nannha sa angel…..jo shayd ab meri hifazat nahi kerta,
Ek white wrist band,jo me ne tmahre hath se utaar ker khud pehen lia tha,
Ek silver ring, jis pey ab bhi mera naam kanda hay ek extra 'A' k sath...
Wo ek tissue paper per likha message,
Kuch phate purane movie tickets,
Ek adhooora quiz aur us k kone pey bani wo drawing,
Ek mug jis per wo cute si maano ab bhi bethi hui mjhe dekhti rehti hei,

Ek taweel aalwidaai khat, jise perhte perhte sham hojaye,
Ek safhe pey utaara hua 'Economics' ka wo pehla aur akhri lecture,
Aur wo locket jis per likha huye wo harf ab maand per gya hien,
Side table per rakha hua wo clock…jis ki tic tic her pal tmhara naam leti hei,
Ek photo frame jis me ab koi tasweer nahi,

Ek adad T-shirt,
Perfume ki khali bottles jin ki mehek me ab bhi mehsoos ker sakta hoon,
Aur!!!
Aur to kuch bhi nahi,
Bas yehi jama poonji hei,
Yehi kul Asaasa hei mera….

No.1

..
........Kabhi tum ne socha hai No.2 position pai hona kesa lagta hai...kabhi mehsoos kia hai...kabhi experience kia hai???

........Kabhi dekha hai khud ko us k samne khare huye...aamne saamne...bohat kareeb...acha lagta hai na ek doosre ka sath...itne kareeb ..itne pass...per sab kuch ek dum dhara ka dhara reh jata hai...jab aap ko ye pata chalta hai k ap k kareeb hone k bawajood bhi wo to kisi aur k sath hai..jo us k samne nahi us k sath hai....tab aap apne dayen aur bayen dekhtey hain...per wahan to koi hai hi nahi...wahan to kabhi bhi koi nahi tha...ye hota hai No 2 position pai hona.

........Buhat takleefdai hota hai ye ehsaas....Jaane Anjaane mai kabhi hum ksi k bohat pass chale jate hain...bohat kareeb aur is khushfehmi mai hote hain k wo bhi hum se utna hi kareeb hai...per esa hota nahi hai!!!App ki priority aur preference list me to wo No.1 pai hota hai...jab tum us k sath hote ho tmhe kuch aur yad nahi hota ksi aur cheez ka khayal nahi hota....per us k khaylat kisi aur se mansoob hote hain...Aap k dil me wo shaks bari dhitaai se No.1 ki position pai kabza ker leta hai...han jaga aap ki bhi us k dil me hi hoti hai per wo position hoti hai No.2 ya No.3...aur tab aap chahyen bhi to us shaks ko No.2 pai nahi bhej saktey....pata hai kyun...kyun k aap k pass to No.1 spot ko pur karne k lye koi hai hi nahi....

...

........Aur aap is hi ehsas-e-kamtari k sath jeete rehte hain.....ek k bad ek shaks aap ki zindagi mai aata hai, aap use kuch hi arse baad No.1 ki position pai bitha dete hain n phr kuch arse baad hi aap ko aap ki position pata chalti hai....No.2 phr se.....Aap ek baar phr ye thoker kha k chal parte hain zindagi is safer pai k kahi, koi to mile ga jis k lye aap No.1 pai aate hon gey....No.2 ya No.3 pai nahi.....

Thought of the Day

..
Love is like War
Easy to Start
Hard to End
and
Imposible to Forget...

Coming Back to Life

..
I think the Moment has Arrived,
For Killing the Past and
Coming back to Life!!! :-)

The Triangle

Under Construction

Pain and Courage

"So what if you think that the world is cruel and is filled with hatred? The world never thinks about you in this manner! Do u know the reason? because your sorrow and your pain isn't worth depressing the entire world. Pain does not matter. But the Courage to stand, does!"

(Book of Reality, 201)

Facebook

Let me preface this post by saying, I do have a facebook account and I use it.
Facebook has become a craze in the last few years, in fact it was launched in February of 2004 a mere 4 years ago. By september of 2007, facebook had over 64 million subscribers and about 14 million uploads DAILY!
It is easy to be a "friend" in facebook, you only have to ask someone to be your friend and 99% of the time, they will say, "YES."
The amazing fact that I have people on my "friend's list" that I have NEVER EVER EVER spoken to. In fact, I was asked to be friends with people at the School that I attend that I normally would not recognized.
Another "important" aspect of facebook are applications. One can get the "daily verse," or "the farside of the day," or "fun fact." However the most revolting part of this application comes by way of SUPERPOKE. Superpoke, which I could never sign up for, is an application that allows you to, "dance with," "throw a sheep at," "hug," "eat thanksgiving with," etc. This application allows you to do things with people that you would never do in real life.
Facebook is a great technological advance, it allows people to keep in touch with others, and helps you find people that you have not seen. YET I have to ask, if you have lost touch with someone, why do you need to find them again?
If you are not friends with someone, why are you looking to be "friends" with them over facebook?
If you are not going to throw a live sheep; why must you do this on facebook?

Facebook is Friendship with no strings attached!
Infact.....Now a days any kind of Freindship is with no strings attached..!!

Courtesy:Unknown

When Is a Friendship Over?

I was talking with a girlfriend and she mentioned that one of her oldest friends had seemed to be drifting away from her for some time.
"Then two weeks ago we stopped talking altogether," she said with a shrug, "and so I suppose it's over."
Far from an authority on how to end acquaintances, I rather stink at it. Not counting the plethora of doomed alliances in high school and college, I simply don't let most people go nowadays. I meet wonderful folks wherever the wind takes me and hold on for life.
There are only a few exceptions to that rule. Recently I discovered that a good friend had made some seriously bad decisions and, although I won't reach out to tell him not to ever talk to me again, I seriously hope he does not. His lapses in judgment were that bad.
But more often than not, I keep in touch with the planet. And it seems to me that two weeks of silence is not reason enough to end a friendship.
Case in point - an old friend from Boston stopped emailing me back about a year and a half ago. No explanation, really, I just stopped hearing from him. Once quite close, after moving back to Tampa we'd email one another every other month or so. Therefore it was concerning, but not jarring, to lose touch completely. I would still email him - nothing confrontational, just pictures or the occasional joke - every once in a while. Because I can't help myself.
Few weeks ago, I finally got a response back. Seems his wife had been battling quite a serious illness. This old friend wrote me a lengthy email, explaining all his family had been through this past year, and how he looks forward to seeing me and my brood this summer.
I'm glad I never stopped reaching out.
Don't get me wrong - if I were under the impression that a previously close friend was backing off, I'd let him or her go. I'd stop the phone calls and emails altogether. Like my old friend Sharon used to say,
"Drop the reigns and let the horse keep on trottin'."
I don't chase anyone.
But instead of changing my number and moving on, I like remaining open and available. Feels better than ending a relationship.
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I respect the views of the author But
I have a question...that
"Why do they need to Turn towards you again ,if they have Lost Touch with you Once? "

lol

;)

I luv u

I wonder if we really know when we fall in love. How can the writer or the character be so sure of the exact time and date when he/she fell in love? Is it so easy to describe the most complex feeling one has in just two short words? You can't just get up one day and decide that you are in love or you are going to be in love. It just doesn’t work that way.
This is the biggest dilemma of the young adults of our age. We so badly want to associate with someone that we usually force ourselves to either fall in love with someone or to deceive ourselves in believing that we are in love with a particular person.
Falling in love or being in love is one’s life’s most important decision and experience. Usually life revolves around it—we revolve around that person. Why are we so hasty in making the most important decision of our lives? Why the first person who shows some care is the person we decide to spend our lives with? I do understand that it is hard to resist the care and kindness but we need to keep in mind that the consideration one is offering you might not be for forever. We need to understand that probably the other person is not as emotionally involved as we are.
A good relationship is the one in which both partners/spouses bring the best out of each other. A good relation is the one in which you not only have fun but you know (notice it's not “you think”, it's "you Know") you can count on one another for support. A relation where you can be a complete and total mess but the other is still willing to accept you and love you.

Do you see yourself pretending in front of your partner? Do you feel pressurized into doing something that you don’t really feel like doing? It can be something as simple as watching a particular type of movie or staying up late at night. Do you, at times feel that you are overly criticized or overly praised? Do you question their or your own credibility? Do you feel afraid that they will probably cheat on you if they had a chance? Do you think you can't be yourself in front of your partner most of the times? Have you faced certain times when you were not able to count on them or you didn’t feel comfortable doing so? If you answered YES to even one of these questions then let me tell you that there is something seriously WRONG with the relationship you are in.

Half of the time we know exactly how the other feels about us but we deceive ourselves into believing that everything is going well. Half the couples that I see breaking up, they will confess at one point or another that they knew for a long time that things were not going well.
Why are you so afraid? Is that person the only person who will ever love you? Are you afraid that you will never find love again? Is your self esteem so low that you are willing to put up with someone who really doesn’t care about you? The person who has left you when you needed them the most or worse yet, left you for whatever reason and you are still crying over it? Why are you so pathetic? I am not willing to cry over people who have treated me badly and neither am I going to stick around in a relationship which doesn’t give both of us happiness. The ultimate goal of life is Happiness. We are with a person because he makes us happy and because we make them happy; if you are not happy there is no point. It's better to live alone and free than put up with an idiot for the rest of your life.

…And love, I've come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day. It is not a NEED. It is not a WANT. It should never be those things. I am sure we all are better than that.

Thought of the Day

" Theres No market for Sorrows in this World, so Never advertise them "

Hosla

..
Manzil mushkil to kya..
Dhundhla saahil to kya..
Tanha ye dil to kya...

Ye Hosla kyun jhuke
Ye Arzoo kyun ruke!!!

Khauff

..
He's so
Scared to get close to anyone
Coz every one that ever said "I'll b there"
Left...

Story of a Boy

Let me tell you a story:

I saw a boy. He is but a hollow shell, living each day with struggles. His passion and dreams might be pure, but he fails each chance to reach it. Each step he takes forwards takes him back three steps. He sees life run by him, people who come and go, event after event, story of miracles that flow past his ears, but his life is as plain as a blank sheet. You would think he would just fall down and disappear but after all these years, he never lost hope.

You can see in his eyes, the fire is slowly dying. He can no longer see the future,nor he can live in the present...he can only review the past. Each loss hurts more than the last. First was the pin-prick, now it feels like an impalement for life. The sting hurts the more he walks. You can also see in his eyes, the fire refuses to die. Consciousness fights to maintain his pace, his will backs his aching weakened body, his soul fuels his mind.

Is there someone out there that shares his pain? Is there someone who understands him as an individual? The heart to someone who despite his best always falls short of the best?
How can anyone notice the one who fights back the hardest? Can you see the sweat from head? The bruises he carries? The hollowness in his heart eating his soul, the emptiness filling his being?

His arms grows tired, his mind weary, his body dies, his legs fail, his mouth drops, his voice lost in the winds, his will falters, his eyes clouded. Will you stand by him? Will you arrive to clear his doubt? Will you pull him from six feet under to stand among the living? Will you drag him from defeat and drive hope back into his soul? Will you be the one to help him find his vision, to find his path?

Or

Will you strike him down, ending his eternal torment? Will you be the final stroke that will shatter his will, tear his heart apart, and finally crush his eyes? Will you be the one to bury him in his in-competency, to seal his end with his own actions, unforgiving and un-forgetting?
The story cannot end, the boy still walks. He does not want to see the end, nor does he want to know the end, all he wants is to live his best, giving his best. The world will throw everything at him in years to come, but if the boy wants to live past that, he will need to live past today.
Can you be the candle on his life? Like how someone was a candle to your darkness? Like how someone is the candle for the world? Burn in this boy the meaning to live, to live for others, for the struggle to exist never ends, but to exist for others is to exist nonetheless, so ends the never ending cycle.

Courtesy: Shani

I agree;)

“Every woman is wrong until she cries, and then she is right - instantly.”

Thought of the Day

"Its Hard to watch people Change right in front of you
But
the Worst part is Remembering who they used to be"

End of Life

I tend to live in the past because most of my life is there..My past includes stupid planz,fantasies,gossipz,naughty talks,larayi jhagra,minnat tarlay,crdt ending,bdayz,going to super,jinnah super,F-8 evry nw n then,shopping,lame excuses,tension,studies,crazy trips,puzzles,doubts,smiles,happiness,crushes,break ups ,copying eachother!!! Takin wierdoo pics ov each other n den deleting dem & somtimes not deleting dem;),eatin in one plate,forgiving eachother,makin funny pics,talking for hours on da fone widout any purpose _

There iz just so much in my past..seemz as if ive spent my whole life already n de life has been ended for me...

Lahor Lahor aye

I landed on this interesting Facebook community titled, “you know you’re from Lahore when”.

-The morning rush hour is from 6am to 12pm. The evening rush hour is from 2pm to 9pm. Saturday’s rush hour starts Friday morning.
-You buy anything and everything from Al-Fatheh
-Your Massi and Driver have taught you fluent punjabi
-Your broke ass next door neighbour just bought a BMW cuz he deals in property
-A really souped up civic from tokyo drift stops next to you and instead of something groovy, the woofers blare out himesh rishamya
-One of your friends is a butt
-The people in your local Gourmet Bakery know you by face
-The first 15 channels on your cable are dedicated to stage shows mujras
-Attended a shaadi that had to have a mujra
-The only solution to boredom is eating out
-All directions start with, “Go down to Main boulevard”
-You think its okay to wait 5 hours in line for Basheer’s Fish in Mazang, cuz dude! he only opens 6 months a year
-You go to Shahjamal every thursday to smoke weed with pappu sain
-Its okay to run a red light if the traffic police dude doesnt have a bike to chase you
-When someone asks you ”bhai yeh fortress kahan hai”, you have an evil grin on your face and send him to johar town
-If your hungry at 3am, you go to CTC in your PJ’s instead of walking to your kitchen
-Your cousins from karachi ask you about food street and your like “yeah i went there back in 2003?
-Your winning argument about how lahore is better than karachi is ‘Lohr lohr aaye’
-You always count the change before you leave shop, beacuse all shop keepers rip you off.
-You always thank the rude shop owner because he actually “let you buy something from his shop”
-You know that its in evitable that you’ll be “chalaned” on mall road.
-Your cousins from america ask you about malls and your like “Yea we have Pace, but i never go there”
-You go to the daewoo more than the airport.

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Thanx

Thanx for evrything :)

Beyhisi

Sadion ka karb seeney me chupaye

sard maujon ka haath thaame

samander...

saahil se lipat kar ro raha tha

aur door khari wo larki

apney saathi se keh rahi thi

dekho to

ye manzar kitna pyara hai!

Confusion

People are made to be Loved and Things are made to be Used..
The Confusion in this World is that
People are being Used and Things are being Loved..!

Thought of the Day

“The ones who are bound to be your best friends must lose your trust just once to prove that they can win it back.”

Thought of the Day

Its Hard to wait around for Something that you know might never Happen ,But its even Harder to give up especially when its Everything you have ever Wanted.

I miss something

coming soon

Jazz Card

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