Those lil Calls from you

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Dear someone,

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i don't know if you'll get to read it or not, or will you actually know that its about you and nobody else. dear someone, its not that i cant go on living without yew, its just that its really really hard. i miss yew, dear someone, not wholly, but lil lil parts of yew dat used to matter so much at a time. i miss your fights,i miss yr jokes and stupid attemmpts to make me laugh.. i miss your guidance... i miss your arguments... i miss your calls... those small talks... of you being there without actually being there... of yew knowing how much i used to hurt... of me neva having to speak another word to tell you what wrongs u did...

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dear someone, i miss all of that. ...and these are the times wen i desperately want my cell to ring, it does but not by yr calls. I pray that it wud but, really, it never does. and dats the thing i miss the most. i miss those calls dat used to cheer me up and i miss that contact and that relationship which allowed me to call yew names. its too formal now dear someone! and i feel lost...

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Courtesy:Aruj

Thought of the Day

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"The things that made me strong are the ones that didn't let me sleep first"

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-Unknown-

Without One...

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Its 3 am..i cant sleep..I believe its insomnia that has been giving me so many sleepless nights..Dark...lonely nights ,with a feeling of desolate desperation..What causes this feeling?I have thought over this time and time again but never reached a satisfactory conclusion...sometimes the feeling of frustration deepens as I am faced with a cruel,cold and practical reality that at the end of the day i am still alone..the pain that this face hides and the darkening emotions can only be understood by that lonely heart..what makes me talk like this?I can never fathom the reason..But time after time this feeling dogs me,haunts me and then again I start searching for those elusive answers to the questions I ask myself..how does one find pleasure in someone else's pain? Why are they so bothered about whats going on in someone else's life? why don't they go away ,find new victims..How do you fight the darkness trying to surface? How do you control your darker side when they start weighing heavily on your other side..Is it really the darker side or is it being just "human"? How do you handle the pain threatening to tear you apart, when the music is blaring at eardrum splitting level and yet you cant hear a thing...something is gone, something that was once called "innocence"

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Things refuse to leave my mind,its like moving pictures in my head..Its so much easier to just run away,bury the pain,replace the pain with numbness. My friend asked me why my blog always has such depressing stuff...I didn't have an answer then but I have one now..its because thats the strongest emotion.. Happy moments are like mirages..they disappear if you get too close.. But the Pain remains..The Memories remain..the Hollowness increases threatening to swallow you completely...smothering you...leaving you cold....and the worst part is that there is no one you can turn to except for yourself…that’s the reason you recede deeper into the shell that you create around you...This hypocritical,shallow,cold world is creeping me out…The more I fight against it the crueler it becomes..Friends turn foes, lovers turn strangers…The meaning of emotions,relationships change in a minute.. There is no such thing as “true love or friendship”.. Its an illusion and if you make the folly then you pay , pay with everything you have got, with the last shred of emotion left in you..It takes away your smile and the glint in your eyes...

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Courtesy:Shani

Truth of the day

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"Just because you cannot see the path does not mean it is not beneath your feet "

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-Courtesy: Shani-

Here Without You

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A hundred days had made me older

since the last time that I've saw your pretty face

A thousand lights had made me colder

and I don’t think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate

They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

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I’m here without you baby

but your still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

and I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby

but your still with me in my dreams

And tonight it’s only you and me

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The miles just keep rollin

as the people either way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

but I hope that it gets better as we go

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I’m here without you baby

but your still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

and I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby

but your still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl it’s only you and me

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Everything I know,

and anywhere I go

it gets hard but it won’t take away my love

And when the last one falls,

when it’s all said and done

it get hard but it won’t take away my love

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I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and

I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby

but your still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl it’s only you and me

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-3 Doors Down-