Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

Broken -LifeHouse

Manzil!

...

Ye kia Safar hai ke jis main
Raste bhi Humsafar bhi ...

kadam kadam par Badal rahe hain
koi bhi Manzar nahi ke jismai Thehar sakon main
Palak palak mai badalne wali
Ajeeb dunya ki Rahguzar hai

kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil
kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil

......

humain Guman tha ke is Safar mai

Ziyan ka koi Kadam nahi hai

hamare bas mai hai sari Dunya

kahein koi Pech-o-Kham nahi hai

magar jo ab Murr ke dekhte hain

to Gard ankho mai bhar gaye hai

Wajood sara hai Weham jaisa

Ghubar rasta,Gumaan hai manzil

samajh rahe thay Yahan hai Manzil

....

kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil

kahan hai Manzil, haye kahan hai Manzil....

Kaavish

Choice

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........Going back home...30 minutes into the drive, I felt something warm flowing through my eyes...was that so painful?!?!...leaving someone...missing someone...complaining to God "why the good times don't last long", But isn't it just being ungrateful to God ?!?!?
I am Sad...

.........Next 3 hours passed while driving, having some snacks..sodas, stoping by a couple of gas stations..and thinking and thinking....Isn't it so strange how someone can give us so much happiness and for that very reason one should always be thankful to that person and of course God...You never know it could have been worse.
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.........In the last 30 minutes of the journey..again i felt something warm flowing through my eyes...I asked myself....Is it the same feeling??? "No"...Is it the same person?? "Yes".

I am Happy...

Thought of the Day

Its Hard to Wait around for Somthing ,that you know might Never happen ,

But its even Harder to give up especially...when its Everything you have ever Wanted.

Raat

........Raat....kitni tareek hoti hie na.....ek sannata...ek wehshat...ek anjana sa khauff hota hei raat mei....per jane kyun...in sab key baad bhi ek ajeeb sa sakoon milta hei is raat sey.....Akser hum din me beesion logon k hote hue bhi tanha hote hein....per raat me akele hote hue bhi tanha nahi hote...

Kabhi tum ne ghor kia us Chand per jise raat mei meelon ki musafat tae kerni hoti hei..per wo hamare lye apni raftaar itni madham ker deta hei kai kahin hamari nazron se ojhal na ho jaye....Jante ho kyun ..kyun k wo hume tanha nahi chorna chahta....

Aur ye jheengar jis ka khuaf use hamare samne nahi aane deta...per wo apni chaaen chaaen se musalsal apni mojoodgi ka ehsaas dilata rehta hei...

Deewar per lagi ghari.....poora din jis ki tik tik per hum ghor hi nahi kertey....wo raat bhar humse baatein kerti rehti hei....kabhi ghor kia raat kai kisi peher ...tik tik tik tik...

Wo sard hawa k jhonke jo tum se sargoshian kerte phirte hein aur wo patton ki sarsarahat...

Aur phir ye sitaare...

" Kis kadar ehsaas hei qudrat ko mere dard ka
Jagte rehte hein taare raat bhar mere lye "

Ye taare hamara sath nibhane ki dor me apni poori koowat se tim timaate rehte hein aur is hi koshish me dam tor jaate hein...aur dekhney wale khoosh ho kay kehte hein “wo dekho toota taara...”

Dekha tum ne!!!

Me tanha to nahi raat kei is safar mei, ye sab mere sath hote hein....mere gham gusaar,mere dost...mere ratt jagon k saathi...

Asaasa

...
Ek key chain,
Ek ‘Jazz’ phone card….jis se ab koi call nahi aati,
‘McDonlads’ kay wrapper per likha wo note,
Ek friendship band, jo ab mere hath ki unglion me ata hi nahi,
Ek hair catcher,
Kuch khali cards….jin mey parhne key liye bohat kuch tha…per ab shayd wo waqai hi blank hein,
Ek nannha sa angel…..jo shayd ab meri hifazat nahi kerta,
Ek white wrist band,jo me ne tmahre hath se utaar ker khud pehen lia tha,
Ek silver ring, jis pey ab bhi mera naam kanda hay ek extra 'A' k sath...
Wo ek tissue paper per likha message,
Kuch phate purane movie tickets,
Ek adhooora quiz aur us k kone pey bani wo drawing,
Ek mug jis per wo cute si maano ab bhi bethi hui mjhe dekhti rehti hei,

Ek taweel aalwidaai khat, jise perhte perhte sham hojaye,
Ek safhe pey utaara hua 'Economics' ka wo pehla aur akhri lecture,
Aur wo locket jis per likha huye wo harf ab maand per gya hien,
Side table per rakha hua wo clock…jis ki tic tic her pal tmhara naam leti hei,
Ek photo frame jis me ab koi tasweer nahi,

Ek adad T-shirt,
Perfume ki khali bottles jin ki mehek me ab bhi mehsoos ker sakta hoon,
Aur!!!
Aur to kuch bhi nahi,
Bas yehi jama poonji hei,
Yehi kul Asaasa hei mera….

No.1

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........Kabhi tum ne socha hai No.2 position pai hona kesa lagta hai...kabhi mehsoos kia hai...kabhi experience kia hai???

........Kabhi dekha hai khud ko us k samne khare huye...aamne saamne...bohat kareeb...acha lagta hai na ek doosre ka sath...itne kareeb ..itne pass...per sab kuch ek dum dhara ka dhara reh jata hai...jab aap ko ye pata chalta hai k ap k kareeb hone k bawajood bhi wo to kisi aur k sath hai..jo us k samne nahi us k sath hai....tab aap apne dayen aur bayen dekhtey hain...per wahan to koi hai hi nahi...wahan to kabhi bhi koi nahi tha...ye hota hai No 2 position pai hona.

........Buhat takleefdai hota hai ye ehsaas....Jaane Anjaane mai kabhi hum ksi k bohat pass chale jate hain...bohat kareeb aur is khushfehmi mai hote hain k wo bhi hum se utna hi kareeb hai...per esa hota nahi hai!!!App ki priority aur preference list me to wo No.1 pai hota hai...jab tum us k sath hote ho tmhe kuch aur yad nahi hota ksi aur cheez ka khayal nahi hota....per us k khaylat kisi aur se mansoob hote hain...Aap k dil me wo shaks bari dhitaai se No.1 ki position pai kabza ker leta hai...han jaga aap ki bhi us k dil me hi hoti hai per wo position hoti hai No.2 ya No.3...aur tab aap chahyen bhi to us shaks ko No.2 pai nahi bhej saktey....pata hai kyun...kyun k aap k pass to No.1 spot ko pur karne k lye koi hai hi nahi....

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........Aur aap is hi ehsas-e-kamtari k sath jeete rehte hain.....ek k bad ek shaks aap ki zindagi mai aata hai, aap use kuch hi arse baad No.1 ki position pai bitha dete hain n phr kuch arse baad hi aap ko aap ki position pata chalti hai....No.2 phr se.....Aap ek baar phr ye thoker kha k chal parte hain zindagi is safer pai k kahi, koi to mile ga jis k lye aap No.1 pai aate hon gey....No.2 ya No.3 pai nahi.....